Adjusting With Time

I have something to admit. Remember a few weeks ago when I said I had gained the courage to take Hayes' crib down finally? Well, I have a confession, I just moved his crib to the opposite side of the room. I couldn't bare to take it down so I just moved it in front … Continue reading Adjusting With Time


A Sea of HayesTough Shirts

It was two years ago, right before the 5K and the babies first birthday. We were finishing up Hayes’ second round of chemo and I was still feeling naively optimistic. All I cared about was getting out of the hospital for the 5K and celebrating the babies. Hayes was sleeping in his hospital crib and … Continue reading A Sea of HayesTough Shirts

Code Blue

I remember one night two years ago up at Primary Children’s Hospital. I had spent the day in a dark hospital room while Hayes slept on and off with intermittent showings of Baby Einstein’s on the TV. I played peek a boo with Hayes and then watched as he drifted off to sleep. It was … Continue reading Code Blue

Until Then….

I recently read the beginnings of a memoir by a 46 year old man that was diagnosed with endocrine cancer. As different as my situation is, I related so much to the cancer experience of this man. The journey from symptoms to discovery to diagnosis....I have walked that path. But as a mother as opposed … Continue reading Until Then….